Hiding Different

She hates being different.  I would have been the same way.

Comments that may just be ones of interest, to her feel so intrusive.  I don't blame her.

I will do anything to protect her, to help her, to ease this burden she must carry.

Tonight the omnipod rep came.  This is my idea of a possible solution.  $199 for the "cut the cord" program is a small price to pay for my daughter's happiness.  It can be hidden better than her current pump with its cord and the pump bands to carry it.

She was a good sport.  She's willing to try it.  But, in her eyes I saw the truth.  There is no good solution.  She is tired of it all.  It is but yet just another gadget for her to wear and try.  Another needle insertion.  Another intrusion to her body.

Diabetes can't be hidden.  It is always there.  No matter how much she tries, she is different.

I can't fix this.  I can only walk beside her, "carrying" her when she needs it and cheering her on the rest of the time.

She doesn't believe there will be a cure.  It took only 4 years for her to lose hope.

I believe she will be ok.
I believe there will be a cure.
I believe someday she will stop hiding different and make peace with this monster she must share her body with.
I will never stop trying to ease the burden, trying to find better ways.
I love her endlessly, even more so because she is different.